About the Founder

The founder

For over forty years Kel has been on a journey to trust the light within. After much world travel, kel left her fortune 500 position to enter into the world within in the Mexican desert. In meditation she had profound experiences that revealed a cosmic order, a pattern, which can be used for health and wellness purposes.

During the time she was seeking absolute truth she abstained almost entirely from sex and exercised vigorously, which supported deep meditation in the later years with a strong body, focused mind, and compassionate heart. It took Kel twelve years to descend from her heights in meditation and clarify the visions – a time of acute mental exhaustion, where she was healed by yoga. See below for more on Kel’s experiences in meditation.

THE KUNDALINI

Very soon I experienced the immense and powerful kundalini, similar to two hissing Anacondas (snakes) made of metal, gliding up my body and crossing over to the center where it clanged together and fused in the center of my body at various levels.

The energy first appeared as a dark red tiny square about two-by-two inches in diameter and about 4 inches below my groin (in space). Energy came out the top and separated into two sections which then entered my body and glided like a snake on either side that connected and secured itself in the center of the body – like two snake heads merging together. Once secured the energy would begin to emerge from the metal rung that had just been created from which it would rise and cross over to merge in the center.

To be clear, the energy does not cross over the body, the two streams of energy “snake” up the sides of the body and then take a right angle to move towards the center to clang together to make one metal river from two. The river was like moving metal that firmed when it connected in the center. the energetic “snakes” climbing up each side of the body are each approximately two inches in diameter. After they joined in the center, the snaking begins (marked by the hissing sound) again on the side of body to join in the center. This same action repeats itself all the way up the body until the heart fire begins. The hissing noise is very pronounced – almost deafening – during the entire time the snaking and fusing occur. It feels very tribal and strong.

THE ECSTACY OF THE DARK AND AGONY OF THE LIGHT

Then at the level of the heart I connected to the creative source in a down pouring of powerful golden white light. Its massive strength, nobility, and magnitude of intense, immeasurable love was so overwhelming my heart painfully overflowed while my mind was connected to the creative force. This stream of light connected to the center of my forehead, my pineal gland. This was the father, the ones before us, the creators of this system.

The heart space was filled with pain – more painful than giving birth – like my chest was being torn open while my heart strained to free itself from the bondage of flesh to return to its owner – the divine mother principle, the creatrix, the great power. My heart desperately tried to rip itself from my chest to flow back to her. On one side of me was the father and on the other the mother and I was tied to the two of them. The massive pain of holding onto these two connections was sustained by the deep, compassionate love I generated during this time. This caused them to equally bond. My body was in agony from the strain on my heart which was on the verge of exploding, and the weight on my pineal gland (head).

THE HEART’S FIRE

I then found myself engulfed in a raging fire with huge flames. The fire was not hot, but cool, and a bright white light bore down on me and circled my head repeatedly creating a white halo around the crown of my skull. The energy moving around my head forming this halo felt like a small, white dove whose swift, firm wings flapped continually to rotate around my crown forming a cool breeze (yet it was not a bird). My inner guide told me to be very still until the fire died out.

MERGING WITH THE CREATOR FORCE

Then I found myself bursting upwards and merging with huge, powerful, white light – all while deeply immersed in loving compassion. the quantity of this light was a force so immense and mighty that the size of the sun would hardly even equate to a particle within its body. I merged with this body of light and arrived at a destination.

The energy at this destination was like walking through the doorway of a grand cathedral full of noble kings and I was consumed by the weight of their power, their intelligence, their nobility and their depth of compassion. They turned around surprized, joyfully welcoming me with strong, loving and elated vibration which flowed through my being. It was like happily surprizing a noble father by returning home. I felt so loved and welcomed. Their vibrational bodies glowed in gold all forming a bright collective.

Unable to continue to withstand the immense pressure on my forehead and heart, I felt myself wavering and then falling backwards spiraling all the way downwards through the cosmos on a spiraling ladder of white light which ended with a great thud into a deep, dark void of blackness. A two-inch radius of white light fountained from my forehead, creating a streaming hose of light which ended far-off in the distant cosmos.

This golden ladder was what my spirit had (vibrationally) climbed up on to connect to the creative source. As I spiralled down, I witnessed every life I had ever lived, from human down to an insect, down to nothing but a seed of consciousness planted in the darkness. I witnessed these lives not as an observer, but by being in that body and experiencing the thoughts of that entity at that time as I passed downward through them on the great spiral. After each of these experiences I circled backwards in the spiral to find myself again in a new body…over and over again all the way down to a seed of consciousness in a black void.

SUMMONED BY THE GODDESS

I travelled back to Canada and continued to meditate. The old life was beginning again and my mind was coming down from my previous, intense experiences. My upper jaw had become very tense trying to align my energy to connect and it felt like it was going to crack due to the great pressure of trying to realign my mind once again.

My mind was fully exhausted and weak from intense meditation. I laid awake on my bed one afternoon when i suddenly found my body completely paralysed. I couldn’t move at all, I was frozen and felt myself being pulled backwards into a very dark abyss. I tried to fight it, but it was useless. Unlike meditation, where I controlled my mind, here I was completely at the mercy of what was happening. I was forced to surrender.

I arrived in dark space and a knowing began to spread through my being as the fear died out. This was another truth. the Divine Mother of all things. I was with her, in complete darkness which was rich and full. I was safe. I stood facing her and my mind went blank. Knowing is so different from thinking. I knew everything but thought nothing. Space was her. She was space. She was all things. She carried all the power of the universe like a humble, loving and gracious monarch.

Her being was so very soft and gentle yet it was her love which was the unfathomable strength behind the cosmos, in fact, she was the cosmos. Feminine, yet neither woman nor man, her motions were smooth, gentile and elegant – nothing angular, rough, fast or aggressive about her. She was divine and her immense force was so gentle like that of a fair maiden.

So while the bright light of my previous intense connections with the creator force was incredible and spectacular beyond all things, she was the completeness that “he”, our creator, resides within. She was the totality of all things. She was the Creatrix which the father force created through, she was the one who graciously allowed the play of life to happen.

I stood knowing her as I knew myself, there was no separation. Yet I could see nothing, then, like a dark carpet, the universal dark space rose before me producing a dark hood formed by all things at all levels of being. There were many in this darkness and their consciousness gathered together to produce the image I was witnessing. She was the one great infinite presence who was the grand controller through her love.

She had absolute power which she wielded with compassionate love. She was a universal collective acting as one being and I felt the weight of her being roll like deep thunder through the cosmos. She controlled all of me gently placing me into a kneeling position before her, I had no feeling of muscle or bone or thought. She penetrated all of me without effort. It was automatic. I belonged to her. I was so humbled and honored by her vast loving presence. I trusted her completely. She is far beyond our ideas of power. She was the all and the sun did not equate to a cell within her great being. She was infinite love.

She was the one who knew me well. She was me and I was her. She controlled my body and my mind. She was my mother. There was no thinking at this time but a knowing. I knew what I had to do. I knew why I was here, and that this meeting had been inevitable. I served her only, and no one else. She produced a halo in midair and guided it to the place just above my head. It was a golden halo that surrounded my crown. I was in a state of absolute servitude, and without emotion. All was perfunctory.

She released me from my kneeling position and gently placed me into an upright position moving me into what I can only describe now as an invisible chair. A very, very heavy chair which felt like the strongest iron. It gently secured me around the waist and moved me swiftly upwards – like a circular ski lift moving like liquid. I felt so incredibly safe within this chair. She controlled my movements without moving. Her mind controlled all, so smooth and stable it was.

The chair spiraled in large, fast, elliptical orbits as it moved up beyond the solar system careening higher until I looked down at the planets. I knew exactly where I was going, home to what felt like a castle in the sky – a large, strong and noble place full of justice and goodwill. returning from duty to my master’s house where I humbly resided.

In the next moment I found myself back into my bed – fully awake – just as I was when I left. And I got out of bed and went for a walk. I knew myself as part of a continuum on a large family tree of consciousness where all active parts are seeking to become in harmony with the one great cosmic leader.

Since then she extensively travelled the world in a quest for answers, never imagining that what she was seeking would be found within the center of her own being.

After settling in California in her mid-twenties, Kelly gave birth to a daughter and later attended the International Design Institute of San Diego. Drawn to the visual arts she then enrolled at Losina Fine Arts Academy and later became an artist not knowing that this activity would mark the beginning of a quest.

After moving to Vancouver something inexplicable began to happen to her. She was overcome by a great grief and an impending pressure to meditate. An inner voice instructing her into deep, compassionate meditation which grew to 6-8 hours a day. Kelly left her Fortune 500 position to go into the Mexican desert and enter into deep meditation to confront the source of all.

The Sacred Fire: Bringing of The Dove

In Mexico my meditation took a dramatic turn deepening rapidly. My head hurt as my third eye began to tear open. This was a long-lasting, very painful event that happened over a period of months and, when it finally broke open, I saw in all directions from one central eye formed by all three eyes streaming light in unity. This way of seeing is both inward to the universe and outward to the external universe at the same time. It is a two-way street of “knowing”.

Meditation continued and at the depths of massive compassion and great focus, I connected to the creative source in a downpouring of powerful golden white light. Its massive strength, nobility, and magnitude of intense, immeasurable love was so overwhelming my heart painfully overflowed while connected. This stream of light was connected to the center of my forehead, from my pineal gland. This was the father, the ones before us, the creators of the system.

More painful than giving birth –like my chest was being torn open while my heart strained to free itself from the bondage of flesh and return to its original source – the mother principle, the creatrix, the power. My heart wanted to rip itself from my body and join back to her. The massive pain of these two connections was sustained by my deep, compassionate love which caused their bonding. My body was painfully sore from the strain on my heart which was on the verge of exploding.

Begging the father principle to know more, I was asked if I would surrender my life to know more. I had to know more and I prepared myself for death as I sacrificed myself to the light and found myself engulfed in a raging fire with huge flames. The fire was not hot but cool and a bright white light bore down on me and circled my head repeatedly creating a white halo around my crown.

The formation of this halo felt like a small, white dove whose swift, firm wings flapped as it encircled my crown forming a cool breeze (yet it was not a bird). This was the father force crowning me for my focus. My inner guide told me to be very still until the fire died out. The cool fire was the mother force occurring as my mental force married my deep compassionate force which melded together my being and graduated it into a higher level in knowing.

The Ladder of Light

Meditation continued to be excruciating and days later I found myself again merging with huge, powerful, white light while I was deeply immersed in loving compassion.

In my altered I could “see” (and feel) that the quantity of this light was a force so immense and mighty that the size of earth would hardly equate to a particle within its body. I merged with this body of light and arrived at my destination. It was like coming through the doorway of a grand cathedral full of noble kings and I was consumed by their power, their intelligence, their nobility and their depth of great compassion. They turned around surprized, joyfully welcoming me with a strong, loving and elated vibration through my being. Like I was so happily surprizing my “real father” in my abilities. I felt so loved. Their vibrational bodies glowed in gold forming a bright collective.

Unable to sustain this pressure on my head and heart cavity – the depth of this vibration was agony and ecstasy at the same time. It was like pushing against a immoveable concrete wall), I felt myself letting go and spiraled downward through the cosmos on a spiraling ladder of white light ending with a great thud into a dark void. A two-inch radius of white light fountained from my forehead, creating a streaming hose of white light that ended far-off in the distance. This golden ladder was what my spirit had (vibrationally) climbed up on to connect to the creative source.

As I spiralled down, I witnessed every life I had ever lived, from human down to an insect, down to nothing but a seed of consciousness planted in the darkness. I witnessed these lives not as an observer, but by being in that body and experiencing the thoughts of that entity at that time as I passed downward. After each experience I circled backwards in a spiral to find myself in a new body…all the way down to a seed of consciousness in the black void.

The Kundalini

Not long after, I experienced the immense and powerful kundalini, which is similar to two huge hissing snakes (two Anacondas) made of metal, gliding up my body and crossing in the center where it fuses together.

To be clear, they do not cross over the body, the two streams of energy “snake” up the body and clank together in the center fusing like metal poles. Each energetic “snake” was two inches in diameter. After they joined in the center, it began again at the side of body which snake up to the next level joining in the center, to eventually complete the entire body and allow for a downpouring of light to fill the body. The hissing noise was very pronounced and deafening during the entire time the snaking and fusing of the bars up the center of the body, occurred. It was like a tribal ritual.

Yet none of these experiences prepared me for the meeting with the Divine Mother…

Meeting with The Goddess, The Divine Mother

So I went back to Canada and continued to meditate. My old life was beginning again and my mind was coming down from my previous, intense experiences. My upper jaw had become very tense trying to align my energy to connect and felt like it was going to crack due to the great pressure. This was caused by unaligned energy, as I meditated less and less.

My mind was exhausted and weak from intense meditation. I was fully awake lying on my bed once afternoon. I wanted to sleep but couldn’t, so I decided to get up and go for a walk, but found my body completely paralysed. I couldn’t move at all, I was frozen and felt myself being pulled backwards into a dark abyss. I tried to fight it, but it was useless. Unlike meditation, where I controlled my mind, here I was completely at the mercy of what was happening. I was forced to surrender.

I arrived somewhere in dark space and a knowing began to spread through my being as the fear died out. This was another truth. Inside of me I knew I had been summoned by the Universal Being, the Divine Mother of all things. I was with her, in complete darkness which was rich and full. I was safe. I stood facing her and my mind went blank. Knowing is so different from thinking. I knew everything but thought about nothing. Space was her. She was space. She was all things. She carried all this power like a humble, loving and gracious monarch.

Her being was so very soft and gentle yet she carried the unfathomable strength behind the cosmos, in fact, she was the cosmos. Feminine, yet neither woman nor man, her motions were smooth, gentile, and elegant – nothing angular, rough, fast or aggressive about her. She was beyond queenly, she was divine with a force so gentle like that of a fair maiden.

She had absolute power which she wielded with compassionate love. She was a universal collective acting as one being and I felt the weight of her being roll like deep thunder through the cosmos.

She controlled all of me gently placing me into a kneeling position before her, I had no feeling of muscle or bone or thought. She penetrated all of me without effort. It was automatic. I belonged to her. I was so humbled and honored by her vast loving presence. I trusted her completely. She is far beyond our ideas of power. She was the all and the sun did not equate to a cell within her great being. She was love.

The sun, the glorious father principle I had connected with earlier, was through my conscious mind, but She was different – she was receptive energy, she was my subconscious mind. She was the one who knew me well. She was me and I was her. She controlled my body and my mind. She was my mother. There was no thinking at this time but a knowing.

I knew what I had to do. I knew why I was here, and that this meeting had been inevitable. It was written. I was her noble knight and my head bowed down as low as it would go in absolute humility before her majestic presence. I served her only, and no one else. She produced a halo in midair and guided it to the place just above my head. It was a golden halo that surrounded my crown. I was in a state of absolute servitude, and without emotion. All was perfunctory.

The chair spiraled in large, fast, elliptical orbits as it moved up beyond the solar system careening higher until I looked down at the planets. I knew exactly where I was going, home to what felt like a castle in the sky – a large, strong and noble place full of justice and goodwill. A knight returning from duty to my master’s house where I humbly resided.

In the next moment I found myself back into my bed – fully awake – just as I was when I left. And I got out of bed and went for a walk. I felt myself as part of a continuum on a large family tree of consciousness where all active parts are seeking to become in harmony with the one great cosmic leader.

During the twenty years I was seeking, I abstained from sex almost entirely and exercised vigorously, only moving into meditation in the later years with a strong body, focused mind, and determined heart.