Kundalini is Sanskrit for coiled snake, an Indian term for the great power that lies dormant in the earth and in the human body. This power is activated by great power combined with great focus. It is the crowning achievement in our development at this level of being (on the planet) and once it is achieved there is no rebirth. You have mastered your galactic body and will move into mastering your own universal body until you eventually die back to being one with the great mother (the one who birthed you into being).

Cabo San Lucas, Mexico, November 2009

In deep Samedhi meditation I harnessed the Kundalini force in 2009 through focus garnering all my power to my center. I did not know what it was. I only knew to stay still and focus. Once it was activated, it knew exactly what to do…

THE ENTERING OF THE MOTHER FORCE – SHE WHO NUTURES AND BINDS

The goddess force operates the releasing of the Kundalini, the great snakes that wire your mind body together. It first appears to you in your mind’s eye. You can see it about 4 inches below the groin as a blood red cube. This cube opens from the center of the cube then the hissing begins with a red river of energy pouring out and upwards to the body.  The hissing noise is very loud and pronounced – almost deafening – during the entire time of the uniting of the body centers to the mind. the sound of a hissing rattlesnake filled the room, like at a concert, it was very tribal. Very ancient. 

once out of the red cube it forms two red rivers that turn to grey just before they enter the body. Then it glided through my body like two large metal snakes eventually moving up each side uniting their headless forms in the center of the body. then starting again at the side to eventually form a ladder that energy flows upwards on. It’s movement is similar to two huge hissing snakes (large snakes) made of metal, gliding up the body and uniting in each center where it created a fusing with its opposite. In the mind’s eye you see the snakes moving as liquid metal, glides like snakes up the sides of the body then a 90 degree turn towards the center to merge. It repeats itself 3 times – 4 in total to unite the body mind.

Kundalini clarification

To be clear, the snaking force (kundalini) does not cross over the body, the two streams of energy “snake” up the sides of the body, turn to flow across the body and clank together (making a metal clanking sound) in the center fusing like two metal poles. The river is always about two inches in diameter and remaining the same diameter during the whole experience. this diameter is formed by the force of the individual. After they joined in the center, the snaking begins again on the side of body to join in the center once again. This repeats itself all the way up the body and just before the 4^th bar is united the body bursts into flame if the power is extreme.

The fire is the heart level – it is mind body unity at at different, more powerful level of being. This is the boundary of the mother’s land but the energetic flow continues over the bridge of the throat and up through the brow. 

THE BURNING OF THE NATURE BODY – TO BE CROWNED BY THE FATHER

I found my entire body engulfed in a raging fire – huge, flickering flames. But the fire was not hot – but cool, and a bright white light bore down on me and circled the crown of my head repeatedly forming a white gold halo around my skull. This circling went on for quite some time while my body burned. The thing moving around my head forming the white ring appeared to be a small, white bird, like a dove whose swift, firm wings flapped continually as it rotated around my skull forming a cool breeze (yet it was not a bird). Feeling like a bird, yet different from a bird, as it’s wings moved differently – one wing was up when the other was down –  so precise. the elegance of a dove body shape but without a head. My inner guide told me to stay very still until the fire died out.

Suddenly, my heart space was filled with emmence pain – more painful than giving birth – like my chest was being torn open while my heart strained to free itself from the bondage of flesh to return to its owner – the divine mother principle, the creatrix, the great power. My heart desperately tried to rip itself from my chest to flow back to her. My focus united with the father while my heart untie with the other the mother and I was tied to the two of them being torn. The massive pain of holding onto these two connections was sustained by the deep, compassionate love. My body was in agony from the strain on my heart which was on the verge of exploding, and the weight on my pineal gland (head) was like balancing infinity mac trucks on my head. The weight was unbearable.

MERGING WITH THE LIGHT – CREATOR FORCE – HE WHO CREATES

I continued on in meditation and connected to the father force, the creator source, entering a downpour of powerful yellow golden light. It felt massive and with incredible strength, nobility, and a magnitude of intense, immeasurable love – it was so overwhelming my heart painfully overflowed while my mind stayed connected to the stream of force. This stream of force was coming from the center of my forehead, and was connected to a huge, powerful, white light in the distance – all the while I was in incredible pain while deeply immersed in loving compassion. The breadth of this light I was connected to was a force so immense and mighty that the size of the sun would hardly equate to a particle within its body. I merged with this body of light and my soul arrived at that distant destination. Everything was sparkling golden.

The feeling was like walking through a golden castle doorway of a grand golden cathedral full of noble kings and I was consumed by the weight of their strength, their intelligence, their nobility and their depth of compassion. They turned around joyfully surprized to see me, welcoming me with a strong, elated vibration of joyous love which flowed through my being. It felt like a home-coming – like happily surprizing a father by returning home. I felt so loved, so well received and so treasured. Their bright yellow vibrational bodies glowed in gold all forming a bright collective.

Unable to withstand this vibrational height, the immense pressure on my forehead and heart, I felt myself wavering and then fell backwards to spiral all the way downwards through the cosmos on a spiraling ladder of white light which ended with a great thud into a deep, black void of darkness. A two-inch radius of white light (the same diameter of the uniting snakes in my body) fountained from my forehead, creating a streaming hose of light which ended far-off in the distant cosmos.

This golden ladder was what my spirit had vibrationally climbed up on to connect to the creative source. As I spiralled down, I witnessed every life I had ever lived, from human down to an insect, down to nothing but a seed of consciousness planted in the darkness. I witnessed these lives not as an observer, but by being in that body and experiencing the thoughts of that entity at the time as I passed downward through that level of being as them on the great spiral. After each of these experiences I circled backwards in the spiral to find myself again in a new body…over and over again all the way down to a seed of consciousness in a black void.

SUMMONED BY THE MOTHER / THE GREAT GODDESS

I went back to Canada and continued to meditate. The old life was beginning again, as my mind was coming down from my previous, intense experiences. My upper jaw had become very tense trying to align my energy to connect felt like it was going to crack due to the great pressure of trying to realign my mind once again. Flood gates of undirected energy everywhere.

My mind was fully exhausted and weak from continuously intense meditation. I laid awake on my bed one afternoon when i suddenly found my body completely paralysed. I couldn’t move at all, I was frozen and felt myself being pulled backwards into the bed and downwards into a very dark abyss. I tried to fight the pull, but it was useless. Unlike meditation, where I controlled my mind, here I was completely at the mercy of whatever was pulling me. I was forced to surrender and arrived in dark space, unable to control my body or mind and a knowing began to spread through my being and the fear died out. Here I was invaded by complete trust and the totality of truth. This was the Divine Mother of all. I was with her, in complete darkness, and that darkness was rich, full and fertile. I felt so safe, so contained and so protected by ‘Mama’ – which came as a feeling.

I was forced into a kneeling position before her, I had no muscle, bone or thought. She penetrated all of me without effort. It was automatic. I belonged to her. I was so humbled and honored by her vast loving presence. I trusted her completely. Yet I could see nothing, then, like a dark carpet, the universal dark space rose before me producing a dark hooded type figure formed by all things at all levels of being. There were many in this darkness and their consciousness that gathered together to produce the image I was witnessing.

Then She softly became visible in the darkness, unfolding like a black manta ray into what appeared to be a large black shrouded cloak, with no face and no body. She was alive and her essence made up of all things. She is far beyond our ideas of power or of right and wrong. She is all and the previous merge with massive bright light did not equate to even a cell within her great universal being. I knelt in front of her with a blank mind – no thought whatsoever. I just was. Knowing is so different from thinking. I knew everything but thought nothing. Space was her. She was space. She was all things. She carried all the power in the universe like a humble, loving and gracious monarch.